I told him I loved him in the middle of the night.

no choice

now I understand
the definition
of being trapped between
a rock and a hard place.

in front of me
stands
the only two men
i have ever truly
cared for.

one begging for
a second chance,
hoping that what
we have
makes me my best.

whilst the other
is watching me
as I scream like I never have
caught between
what might be

what could be

and what should be.

"Then Jesus said to his disciples, “Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross and follow me."

Matthew 16:24 (via thewordofgodsays)